Am I ready?

I have gotten that question a lot latley... Are you ready??

To be honest no I am not, I have a heart full of questions but God is teaching me trust. Will I ever be ready for something like this? No I won't be completely ready but again trusting more in God. I am going to want to bring them home. I am going to want to never let them go. Some things I have in common with these kids is one my child-like heart, yes I know when to act my age but most of them time you will see me playing with the kids more then talking with the "adults", I know how it feels to have lost a parent.. I only know one side to that story I couldn't imagine losing both my dad and mom it would be hard to overcome that. I know with God by your side you can overcome anything but to lose both these kids must be full of questions. I am praying that God gives me the words to speak but the ears to listen as well. I remeber there were times and still I have my moments where I would just like someone to sit and listen not try to "fix" anything but just sit with me in frustration or sit with me in my tears and yes sit with me in laughter. I am praying that these little ones will see hope, not in me while I am there but in the big picture of everything they are being taught my Hal and Chris and those that are adopted I hope they see that from their parents, I pray they are realizing God ginormous love for them even after such a hardship.

So to anwser anyone one's question.. No I don't think I will be ready or I am be ready as I can before I go experience this crazy adventure I have never experienced before...

Praying and trusting even when I have no anwsers....

My friend Robert

My friend Robert is now in Haiti and sent some more prayer requests...

Facebook Messages - Back Again: "Dear Friends,

I am finally back again in the beautiful country of Haiti. I know a lot of you didn't know that I leave early this morning and I apologize for not letting everyone know ahead of time. I flew out of Houston at 6 a.m., had a layover in Miami and landed in Port-au-Prince around 3:30. I met Gersan at the airport and then we drove back to his house where I had an AWESOME meal of white rice and meat. I am now about to go to bed because we are leaving early tomorrow morning to drive out to Jacob's Well. The last time I drove there, it took six and a half hours.

I will be out at the camp for a couple of weeks at least and I won't have any contact with internet and possibly even phone. Laity Lodge Youth Camp will be coming down for a week in early July to do work at camp and I'm excited about it and can't wait until they get here. I will spend a couple of weeks working with two awesome guys, Bobby and Dustin, trying to get finished with some construction and getting the camp ready for LLYC.

Please be in prayer for us as we will be doing a lot of work at camp. Pray that we will get a lot done and have everything ready for LLYC. Pray for that group, that they will have safe travel down. Pray for the kids that will be at camp and for the Haitian staff. Finally, please pray for the country itself. Pray that Satan's hold will losen and that God's abundant light will shine forever."

Confession....

Okay Confession time...
My pride doesn't want to hand out support letters... My pride wants to do it all by itself.. I can pray by myself and I can make the money by myself. Uhh my pride, through this adventure of getting ready for Haiti I am really seeing myself needing to be humble and ask for help. I have made so many list of people to send or hand a letter to and all those lists I have crossed out people, one by one giving myself an excuse of why I shouldn't give them one. They won't have the time to pray, they won't have time to even read this blog to keep up with what I am doing, they won't have the money because times suck right now for everyone. God is so gracious... I need the prayer everyday that I am there, I am going to need finances because I CAN'T do this by myself... I am going to need the encouragement knowing that people care and want to help and want to read about what is going on... God just seems to be chipping at my heart more and more.. God to you alll the glry be for you are my rock even admist my pride....
"Humble yourselves before the Lord"
In Christ

A friend

I have this friend his name is Robert Meyer and he will be living in Haiti, longer then I will of course but he will doing some pretty amazing things! Here is his info if you are intrested!!! In Christ!

Facebook Robert's moving to Haiti: "Hey Everyone,

As the group title says, I'm moving to Haiti for what could turn into a long-term deal. I will be working with Pastor Gersan and Betty Valcin. I will be helping them mainly at Jacob's Well Camp in Little Guinea and also in Port-au-Prince.

If you have ever talked to me about my trips then you know my desire for that country and the people. It is truly one of the most beautiful places I have ever been to. I can't wait to get back there.

I would like to ask you for your support for me as long as I'm there. Please pray for me, for the camp, for the Valcins and their ministry and of course, for the people and country. If you feel led to, please consider supporting me financially as I will need monthly supporters to help me stay there. I will need around $1,000 a month to cover all the expenses. If you would like to partner with me, please contact me.

I do want to say thank you in advance for all of your prayers and support and to also say thank you for everyone who has supported me in the past. I would not go there without the prayer support that you have given me and my team members.

Sincerely,

Robert

Robert Meyer
185 CR 3107
Crockett, TX 75835"

A question

Caleb and Sol:
§ Will you surrender your life and your plans and your future and your hopes and your dreams and your desires and your thoughts and your actions and your words – all to the Lordship of Christ? Or will you continue to deny His total call/claim upon your life?

So I was reading their blog.. (They have pretty good voices by the way)
They asked this question.. simple right?
I have to say it was almost convicting.. no not almost it really was convicting.. How many times do we (I) say okay God you can have this dream but God can I have this one? I wonder how many times God laughs at us little ones here on earth and goes "You silly human don't you realize I have control of EVERYTHING?" no we don't realize that.. we get so wrapped up in our self centered lives that we don't want to give God all of our dreams, our hopes, our desires, or even our thoughts.... it's funny because he already knows all of these things and we still don't want to give them to him. One future aspect I struggle with from time to time is just where I am going to be even next year.. Life has changed a lot for me and I know how much change a year can bring... I struggle with this while I am going to Haiti.. One thing about going (if I have said this before please forgive me) is it pretty much changes life so to speak, my education life that is, I will either go and love it come back and be so motivated to want to finish.. or I will go and God has something diffrent for me, something way off track of what I thought... I pray my heart is ready for that change whatever it may be I pray that God's desires are my desires
I am in love with God's forgivennes, I am in love with God's grace for he alone can fill me and he alone would I surrender my life too!

Come People of the Risen King (with lyrics) - Keith & Kristyn Getty

We should rejoice, in all that we do, in sickness and health, rich or poor.. Heck ya it's hard but God had done so much for us, our human minds will never fathom!

Let every tongue rejoice!!

Family

I know it's not much what I say, but a lot curiousity comes when I think of different cultures...
Family is a big thing, I have taken a lot of sociology and psychology courses to know that family is huge in some cultures and little to nothing in others. But still someone somewhere has a family.
In visisting these orphan's I think it's going to be hard for me to go and not want to take them home. All I can do right now is pray for them especially the older children.. Everyone seems to want a baby when they adopt but the 10 and older department need homes just as well. It's hard to imagaine but I know it's reality some kids will go from house to house or simply live in an orphanage from the day they are born until the day they reach "adulthood". I love knowing that I am a child of God... Forever I will have a home in Heaven and Forever I will have someone to call Father, Abba, Daddy he will always be the one in my heart and never shuffle me from room to room or house to house...

Today was a bittersweet day, we found out my grandfather passed away in his sleep, yes he was adoptive but he was still my grandpa.. It's hard for those who he left behind but encouaraging to know he is no longer in pain or worrying about the meds to take.. He doesn't have to get up in the middle of the night to let the dog out or worry about the petty things we worry about here on earth he is forever with God my father. The man was a child of God, he never missed a birthday or any of my siblings anniversary and he was the one who held my hand thru my earthly fathers funeral. It's even more encouraging to know that they are there together enjoyig the goodness of who God is! Forever Grandpa you will be in my heart!
It's hard to imagine life without the people around me or the people who have made an impact, but to step in the shoes of these orphans thats what they may have to deal with everyday. They may have questions about their parents, their grandparents even if they have any siblings anywhere and they just may never know. But I pray grealy with a heavy heart that their eyes are fixed on our heavenly father and they are able to see that no matter what he is never going to leave us!
Praying for family today and thanking GOd I was able to enjoy one!
In Christ!